Stop it by Starting it

I've done WW's, been to a dietician - they worked, but didn't work for me. See the thing is I know what's good for me. But I obviously live in a world of denial. I mean, why else could I watch BL and not KNOW that I was a candidate? How else could I gain 20 lbs in 6 mths. How else could I let this happen to myself, knowing full well that my family has bad DNA?

Seriously, how could I not know after my mother and my grandmother died of diabetes related complications. SERIOUSLY??

(note the tough love here)

Yes, my mother was 42 years old when she passed away. It's my subconscious fear. And yet I am defintely on the track to self destruction.

So how do I stop the resistance? Just start. And start again. And when you have an oops! Really start again.

I've restarted up with Spark. It's a tool a co-worker tuned me into almost 4 years ago. I didn't really get into it - I was doing WW at the time and that was really working for me.

But now with 3 kids, two getting into school activities, and hubby's work schedule is 12 days - there's no way I'll get to WW meetings consistently enough, and I know it was the accountability that made it work for me.

Spark has lots of great tools, and communities for just about everyone. Lots of good ways to stay accountable. I also found my co-worker (who has since moved on to another job). She's back in the saddle. That's a good thing, 'cause together we really kept on track.

So I have to stop this downward spiral, and that mean's starting again every day regardless of whether the day before went good or bad. Every day is a new day and a new opportunity to get healthier.

Easily Distracted

Yes world, I am easily distracted from my goals - which is why I am where I am today.

Shortly after my last post I got a knock me down cold that wouldn't give - a good two weeks, wouldn't give up kind of a cold. And with it my exercising got knocked off track and lost somewhere in the middle of no where.

Followed by a trip home (always my undoing) and a wedding. Well I was ready to get back on track - except then my kids got the flu - yeah, you know the one that everyone is freaking out about? - there went another two weeks and in that time my good eating habits? = non-existent.

Yes I'm easily distracted. It doesn't take much more than life itself to get me off track.

So...

Nothing like a good kick in the gut to get you going again. Had a few visits with the Dr's this week - to find out that the insulin resistance is intensifying - unfortunately the only consistent thing in my mini-drama - and all my other health complications are pretty much due to me being overweight and the insulin resistance.

Well, duh.

Only had to give 7 vials of blood, two visits with "specialists" and slap down some money on the counter to find that out huh? I know that from watching BL for heaven's sake!

Sorry - the sarcasm is getting a bit thick isn't it...

So I am sitting at my computer after doing 30 minutes on the treadmill, a portion of which I ran and felt like my lungs were going to explode - tired - but feeling not so bad - to confess to you all my brothers and sisters.

Ain't nothing and no one going to be able to help me, but me. And that's the honest truth.

Here we go again.